Damien666x
how I love - and HATE - now ...

and a little more than a few other things about life,
people, human development ...

what makes us who we are ...

Last Update of this page ...... Monday, March 18th, 2002 at 11:11 p.m.

THE   EVIL

I've decided that few people in my life - or who touch my life in some way or another, including other drivers on the roads, for example - are going to get away with doing a single rude fucking thing to me from now on. In other words - they're going to get SOMETHING unpleasant RIGHT BACK. I've had it with being "passive" - with being a "nice guy ..." People who aren't nice don't deserve to have kindness returned to them from those they hurt in some way or another. So, FUCK 'em ...

Because - you want to know something ? The more times that they keep doing things to others and no one fights back - the more they are just going to KEEP doing adverse and hurtful shit to others. So, if you're reading this, and this is occuring to you, then take my advice: the next time someone does something to you which pisses you off, FUCK THEM UP - and fuck them up REALLY BAD, too. Make goddamned CERTAIN that they aren't going to attack YOU again.

Reserve the precious energy which it takes to distribute kindness for those who are deserving of it. THAT is what I now say. Because you can BET YOUR ASS that there are a LOT more people who are "out to get you" so to speak than there are who are out to HELP you - benefit your life in some way significant - make you feel GOOD in some way - IMPROVE your life in some way - or even who are there to just plain BE NICE TO YOU in some way. This world is FILLED with EVIL fucking bitches and bastards - and it's about time they PAY FOR how they treat others ...
 
 

THE   GOOD

So let me tell YOU what I feel and think that "love" is:

"Love" is your willingness to help me and be supportive of me - regardless of whether or not you agree with my approach, with my dreams, with what I want out of life ...  It's not telling me what I want, nor what I'll "settle for..."  It's certainly not "forbidding" me from pursuing and enjoying the things which you KNOW I enjoy, it's not INSISTING I'LL TOLERATE the things you know I DETEST.

"Love" is not EVER making me feel TRAPPED in ANY situation. It's not making me feel like you "have the upper hand" or somehow "have one over" on me. It's NEVER making me feel inferior to you, nor EVER my making you feel inferior to me.

"Love" is NEVER - in ANY case - MANIPULATING me into situations where you KNOW I feel uncomfortable. It's NEVER saying things TO - nor in front of me - which you KNOW make me feel uncomfortable.

"Love" is not your controlling of MY life - not to ANY degree. It's offering me freedom of choice in ALL situations, and it is always asking me my opinion on things - in making decisions. It's letting me take control of my own destiny - whether for better OR worse - and letting fate run its course. It's being supportive of WHICHEVER decisions I make - whether or NOT you agree with them.